Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Lean on Me

Yes, that's the title of a song (and old song, but given that I'm posting you probably knew that.) But it's something way more important, too.
Let's start from the top, shall we?
I'm taking a biology course at Frederick Community College. Bio 101. It's a college level science course and I haven't finished high school biology. So, as you can imagine, this course is not a cake-walk. The class is also after school (starts at 5) so my brain is normally pretty tired by the time I get there. So this past Tuesday I was sitting at my lab table, trying to understand a really basic chart that the prof. gave us for our lab worksheet. I sat there and stared at it for a while. I was trying to do the lab, or even to totally understand what we were doing for the lab, and my brain simply wouldn't take it all in. I was so frustrated that I could've cried (and that doesn't happen very often.) I got out of class and went down to the library to try to set up tutoring, and there was nobody at the desk. "Go figure." I met my mom outside, and she handed me the keys to the car (she had to go inside for something, and didn't want me to be stuck standing in the parking lot.) So I unlocked the car, tossed my backpack into the back seat, flopped into the front seat, slapped the keys into the ignition, and turned the radio on to 91.9. Anything to keep my brain off of biology and school.
The middle of Stephen Curtis Chapman's "Be Still" came through the radio waves.

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is God
Be still ; be speechless
Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know he is our Father
Come rest your head upon His breast
Listen to the rhythm of His unfailing heart of love
Beating for His little ones, calling each of us to come
Be still.

WHAM. It was like God was looking me right in the eyes, the way you'd do to a little kid when you're explaining something. "Yes, this class is hard. And no, things aren't working out the way you'd planned. But I'm still here. I'm not going to let you go, I'm not going to leave, I'm not going to let you do this on your own. This is part of my plan, and my plans are good."

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" --Jer. 29:11

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." --Prov. 3:5

Ad majorem Dei gloriam!